Can I Just say how madly in love I am with life right now?
I mean really if I could freeze these moments and bottle them up I would because currently life is as close to perfect as it could be for me on this side of heaven.
Let me start with this man.
He's perfect, he's amazing, he can drive me crazy, but boy does my heart skip a beat everytime he kisses me! 7 years ( almost) later and I have fallen deeper and deeper in love with him. The moments haven't always been easy, each of us in our own right can be rather difficult at times and adding in all the things we have been through this past year and even before than its enough to drive anyone to call it quits. But not us, not me and not him. We're in this together forever and does it feel good to know every night as I lay my head on my pillow that I truly am married to my best friend.
Greg works so hard for us. For our family. He's done lots of job moving around these past 2 years and ultimatley we are back where we started but in a much better place and for him an office that is now 30 miles ( LA traffic miles) from home. Every morning he wakes up before 6am to take the train so that he can get to work early so he can come home early and spend time with me and the kids. Greg sacrifices so much of himself and his own free time to be with us and let me tell you, not only could I not ask for a more amazing husband but our children could not be blessed with a better father. Honestly he's the best. He brings out smiles in Winni that only a father could do and while he hasn't really gotten to see Tyson smiling to much Greg has no problem waking up at 3am to change feed and reswaddle him. And by the way my husband is a champion baby swaddler :)
I love him so much and I hope he always always ALWAYS knows that and sometimes I Just dont know if I tell him thank you enough so honey...thank you I love you now and forever.
Then there is this little munchkin! My first baby, my first daughter, the one who first called me mama.
Winni is simply amazing. Watching her grow and change and become such a little girl has been one of the great joys of my life. She is simply the most awesome little girl. She loves Bugs Bunny and Wubzy and recently Caillou. She rquests specific episodes and my little girl has a love for Britney Spears. She requests to go to bed many nights by grabbing her favorite Dora book and flipping through the pages while pointing out the stars and the moon and swiper the fox then she closes her book and she folds her little hands and leans on the couch while she said " Prayers" although it sounds more like "pairs" and off she goes to give kisses to her daddy and her brother and up stairs I take her lay her down to bed and cover her up while she squeals with delight getting " snuggly" under her blanket.
Winni loves to be outside, she loves chocolate milk and will request " car-coons" (cartoons) when she is getting sleepy. She is super into copying everything we say and do and loves to be in the middle of all the action. Winni loves to jump in any form. Rather its on the couch or a trampoline she is bouncing high every second she gets.
And how she loves Tyson. He is her first request every morning and last kiss every night. She kisses him like crazy and when I remind her to be gentle she looks at me and tells me " BIG kiss" to which I remind her for the millionth time to be gentle. Her new thing going up to Tyson, hugging him and saying " Yuv you Tyson" in her sweetest little voice. Its the best. She helps me give Tyson baths at night and loves to hold him every chance she gets.
She loves her Grandma, her Papa's her Stacy and her lovie Ellie. She's still a mama's girl although every morning she asks me where dada is and then answers her own question by telling me " Dada wook....Bacon" because I once told her Dada was at work bringing home the bacon so now there ya have it :)
She's awesome but for a while I missed her being a baby. I missed the sweet baby face and all the wonderful little things about her being 9 months old ( one of my favorite stages with her) but suddenly I don't miss it anymore. I treasure it so much and hope I never forget a single memory and tuck them all away in my heart the wonderfulness of her as an infant but I also love toddler Winni. The little girl who wants to have friends and loves to play with her doll house. I love the way she dances and claps when she goes pee pee on the potty and I simply love the conversations I get to have with her. She's the funniest, sweetest most awesome kid on the whole planet and I just can't believe I am blessed to call myself her Mama.
Oh and Tyson! The second man in my life who has stolen my heart!
I can honestly say I never knew how much my heart needed a son. A little man in all his handsomeness to hold and love and its feel so the same yet so different. I look at him and hope he is just like his father. I think of this massive responsibilty I have to raise him a Godly man who will one day make a great husband. To be strong and bold while gentle and quiet. Its amazing the things I feel when I hold him. I look at him and just marvel at the responsibilty I feel to make him an amazing man, to honor his birth mother for the amazing sacrifice she made in giving him the gift of life and I know he has such great huge things ahead for him.
In the 2 shorts months we have known him he has stolen our hearts. From his adorable lip quiver that makes everyone ask " is he cold?" to his constant desire to be held and stare at the fan we love him. His big blue eyes and lashes that just keeping getting longer and longer captivate me as I stare at him every morning and can see my reflection in them.
I love my time just me and him. Being the second child I sometimes think of how he doesn't get the one on one time that Winni did and I know such is life but none the less I love the morning when its just him and I starring into one anothers eyes. He knows I'm his mama, he hears my voice now and searches for me. And in the last several weeks has blessed me with the sweetest smile I have ever known. He talks to me every morning.
Tyson's favorite spot is his changing table. Right next to the window as I open the blinds ever so slightly and he loves the warmth of the fun on him as he stares all around outside while I change his diaper. I haven't been pee'd on in week so figure I must have figured this whole " changing a boy" thing out...for now. He'll lay there forever just starring around his room and I think secretly thinking " Thank God I am out of Winni's reach" :)
Tyson has completed us in so many ways. I feel so .... whole now. Like this all american perfect family I had always wanted and with one phone call on a Saturday at Knotts' Berry Farm it became mine. The husband, the daughter, the son ... Life is so complete and I have never felt so alive.
At this moment we don't know if Tyson will be our last baby or not. We are always open for what God has in store for us but because he has completed us so much he may be our last newborn so I think I treasure the moments with him slightly more. Holding him as much as I can ( with a 2 year old who constantly wants to play) and taking all the time I can to just be and just soak in all these moments.
I am loving life right now. I am truly living the dream and I have never felt so complete and so fulfilled.
Then there is this little munchkin! My first baby, my first daughter, the one who first called me mama.
Winni is simply amazing. Watching her grow and change and become such a little girl has been one of the great joys of my life. She is simply the most awesome little girl. She loves Bugs Bunny and Wubzy and recently Caillou. She rquests specific episodes and my little girl has a love for Britney Spears. She requests to go to bed many nights by grabbing her favorite Dora book and flipping through the pages while pointing out the stars and the moon and swiper the fox then she closes her book and she folds her little hands and leans on the couch while she said " Prayers" although it sounds more like "pairs" and off she goes to give kisses to her daddy and her brother and up stairs I take her lay her down to bed and cover her up while she squeals with delight getting " snuggly" under her blanket.
Winni loves to be outside, she loves chocolate milk and will request " car-coons" (cartoons) when she is getting sleepy. She is super into copying everything we say and do and loves to be in the middle of all the action. Winni loves to jump in any form. Rather its on the couch or a trampoline she is bouncing high every second she gets.
And how she loves Tyson. He is her first request every morning and last kiss every night. She kisses him like crazy and when I remind her to be gentle she looks at me and tells me " BIG kiss" to which I remind her for the millionth time to be gentle. Her new thing going up to Tyson, hugging him and saying " Yuv you Tyson" in her sweetest little voice. Its the best. She helps me give Tyson baths at night and loves to hold him every chance she gets.
She loves her Grandma, her Papa's her Stacy and her lovie Ellie. She's still a mama's girl although every morning she asks me where dada is and then answers her own question by telling me " Dada wook....Bacon" because I once told her Dada was at work bringing home the bacon so now there ya have it :)
She's awesome but for a while I missed her being a baby. I missed the sweet baby face and all the wonderful little things about her being 9 months old ( one of my favorite stages with her) but suddenly I don't miss it anymore. I treasure it so much and hope I never forget a single memory and tuck them all away in my heart the wonderfulness of her as an infant but I also love toddler Winni. The little girl who wants to have friends and loves to play with her doll house. I love the way she dances and claps when she goes pee pee on the potty and I simply love the conversations I get to have with her. She's the funniest, sweetest most awesome kid on the whole planet and I just can't believe I am blessed to call myself her Mama.
Oh and Tyson! The second man in my life who has stolen my heart!
I can honestly say I never knew how much my heart needed a son. A little man in all his handsomeness to hold and love and its feel so the same yet so different. I look at him and hope he is just like his father. I think of this massive responsibilty I have to raise him a Godly man who will one day make a great husband. To be strong and bold while gentle and quiet. Its amazing the things I feel when I hold him. I look at him and just marvel at the responsibilty I feel to make him an amazing man, to honor his birth mother for the amazing sacrifice she made in giving him the gift of life and I know he has such great huge things ahead for him.
In the 2 shorts months we have known him he has stolen our hearts. From his adorable lip quiver that makes everyone ask " is he cold?" to his constant desire to be held and stare at the fan we love him. His big blue eyes and lashes that just keeping getting longer and longer captivate me as I stare at him every morning and can see my reflection in them.
I love my time just me and him. Being the second child I sometimes think of how he doesn't get the one on one time that Winni did and I know such is life but none the less I love the morning when its just him and I starring into one anothers eyes. He knows I'm his mama, he hears my voice now and searches for me. And in the last several weeks has blessed me with the sweetest smile I have ever known. He talks to me every morning.
Tyson's favorite spot is his changing table. Right next to the window as I open the blinds ever so slightly and he loves the warmth of the fun on him as he stares all around outside while I change his diaper. I haven't been pee'd on in week so figure I must have figured this whole " changing a boy" thing out...for now. He'll lay there forever just starring around his room and I think secretly thinking " Thank God I am out of Winni's reach" :)
Tyson has completed us in so many ways. I feel so .... whole now. Like this all american perfect family I had always wanted and with one phone call on a Saturday at Knotts' Berry Farm it became mine. The husband, the daughter, the son ... Life is so complete and I have never felt so alive.
At this moment we don't know if Tyson will be our last baby or not. We are always open for what God has in store for us but because he has completed us so much he may be our last newborn so I think I treasure the moments with him slightly more. Holding him as much as I can ( with a 2 year old who constantly wants to play) and taking all the time I can to just be and just soak in all these moments.
I am loving life right now. I am truly living the dream and I have never felt so complete and so fulfilled.
3 comments:
I know exactly how you feel. I have felt that way since Addy was born - like life is finally complete. We probably won't have any more babies, so I do the same thing with Addy - just soak her in, just enjoy every second of her quickly fading infancy. It's great to be happy, isn't it:)?
That was a beautiful post! I hope I can have a life like that someday!
You look absolutely smitten over your two bundles of joy-you deserve every minute!
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