Today is just a weird day. Some of me is happy. Happy that this is my last week of the quarter, happy that we aren't going to the RE, happy that March seems to be a relatively normal month and happy that this weekend is filled with fun things. Then some of me is sad. Sad we aren't going to the RE, sad we aren't pregnant, sad this was possibly are last shot at a 2009 baby, sad that on my birthday I won't even have the joy of knowing if I'm pregnant. Sad I can't give my husband a baby, sad I can't make my mom a grandma and my dad a grandpa, and sad that I feel sad. Than some of me feels jealous, its seems every day another blogger is pregnant, or another family member is announcing there pregnancy. Then I feel bad for feeling jealous. Then I feel angry because of all this, why this is happening to us and why can't we make babies like everyone else in the world. I am all over the place today and somehow need to channel it into getting my art board done before tonight!
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I know what you mean. I go through all of those same emotions. It is just so exhausting! I will be praying that tomorrow is a better day for you!
Love
Lindsey
I hear ya, I go through those emotions too. :( I hate to be jealous of those who are pregnant but sadly, I am. I'm envious they are experiencing something I may not be able to.
Chin up my dear, it will get better. {{hugs!}}
i go through all those emotions too. i always think i'll be ok with all our friends and siblings announcing their pregnancies and the births of their babies, but i'm not. i'm still super jealous.
Hang in there. All those emotions are normal. And even when you are pregnant you will still have some of those. Yes, it's true.
Hang in there and don't lose your faith, hope, love and belief! BELEIVE!
:) Kitty
I felt the same way. I was so jealous at a co-worker that when she came in with her baby I wouldn't pay any attention. Sad...huh...I know. I would cry (in private of course) when someone would announce their pregnancy to us. I do believe the best thing in life happens to those who wait. It took us years before finding out I had PCOS. Even with that I wouldn't let it get to me because I wouldn't give up on hope and faith.
I hope tomorrow will bring you a better day and don't give up on hope and faith.
I am so sorry your IUI was not successful.
We have all had days like you are having today. Sending hugs, thinking of you and wishing you peace!
It's normal... I suffer from PCOS as well, along with other health issues, and have been trying to get pregnant for a year and a half. We were supposed to try our first IUI last month... and I found out I was pregnant. And promptly miscarried. Now I get to ride to work with my very pregnant carpool partner. Jealousy is so normal. I hate it, but it is what it is. Hang in there!!
AMEN SISTER!!! You pretty much summed it up right there...*sigh* I'm angry, sad and jealous right with you!
((hugs))
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