Hey ladies! I don't have to much to say just still waiting around in the two week wait and have been pretty calm. I guess honestly I'm expecting the next test to be negative, what else can I expect when that's all I know? So anyways I have been wanting to tell you all about my experience on Saturday. It's such a long story but to make it short my church had a women's conference and the guest speaker was Sheri Rose Shepherd. I urge you to get her books, CD's, DVD's everything. She is so amazing! She's funny, smart, beautiful and most importantly a woman of God. She has been to hell and back and has a incredible story. I went into the conference wondering what the heck we were going to do for 8 hours, and at the end I wished we had 8 more!
I wish I could tell you every word she said and every profound message she gave to me that day but one thing she did say and it completely stuck with me I wanted to share with you. She was going through a rather hard time in life, struggling with her husband and her son. Both has essentially left her for other things. In her hour of need she cried out to the Lord " Please if I do what you ask of me, please bring my boys back to me." And she said she heard the Lord speak to her and He said " If I don't, am I still enough for you?" What a heart wrenching statement! In her darkest time she cried out to God thinking His answer would be a simple yes but instead He asked her " Am I enough?" ( OK I'm crying as I remember the moment and how it spoke to me)
That simple statement from the Lord could be applied to so many of our lives. Sometimes we love God with conditions. We love Him all the time of course but we REALLY love Him when he gives us what we want. A husband, a baby, a raise, whatever it may be. It made me look at myself and I think how when things are going so great ( free IUI's, 3 follies, good lining) I praise God and I love Him so much, talk to him every day and worship at His feet. But when He doesn't give me what I want ( a positive pregnancy test for example) I get mad at Him and ignore Him. And it is in those moments the Lord is asking me " If I don't ( give you what you want) Am I enough?"
YES LORD YOU ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME!
Hearing those words made me realize how much more of myself I need to give to the Lord, that even if I never have a baby to hold in my arms HE IS STILL MORE THAN ENOUGH!
Hearing those words made me realize how much more of myself I need to give to the Lord, that even if I never have a baby to hold in my arms HE IS STILL MORE THAN ENOUGH!
2 Corinthians 12:9 My grace is sufficient for you, My power is made perfect in weakness
I left the church Saturday having gained so much and it was exactly what I need that day. The Lord called me to that place and I feel I was so blessed from the experience.
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I'm so glad you were influenced by the conference and appreciate you passing the message on to influence the rest of us!
btw...Barlow Girl has a great song called "Enough" that goes right along with your blog!
thank you for sharing this. Such a great thing when God speaks to our hearts exactly how we need Him to but even better when we learn something from it. I was wondering if you have seen the movie "Facing the Giants" You can actually trick your hubby into watching it if you havent because its a IF movie diguised as a football movie. Really if you havent watched it you should. The message of the movie is so clearly what you were just talking about. I hope your 2week wait ends how we all hope they will. Really I do!
Wow! This is touching. I think we all tend to pray more when there are things are going well or when prayers are answered but when they are not, we pull away. So glad you enjoyed the day!
I've just been doing a lot of reading about unconditional love -- mostly as it applies to marriage, but of course it applies to God and our relationship with Him too. And that's exactly what this is, isn't it? Will we love God with conditions, or simply love Him?
This is not easy! As hard as it is with spouses (who, of course, are not perfect), it almost seems even harder with God, at least for me. I mean, He IS perfect! And all-powerful. He IS capable of doing all the things we want.
It's a struggle, all right! Thanks for sharing.
Jen
what an inspiring message. i can certainly apply the question to my life and situation. the phrase "count your blessings" has a much deeper meaning than a lot of people realize.
I've totally been struggling with that the past week or two...I do put so many conditions on my love for God...and I know its soooo wrong! This whole baby thing is pretty much my "idol" and God has really been convicting me of that!
Thank you so much for the great post!
You got me teary eyed. I know you are a women of God and a true follower of his. You are worthy and good. Even when we have hard times I know that you still love God. I understand wanting to follow God the same way at all times but it is hard. I believe God will bless you with children. I'm glad you got a lot out of this but also know that God wants to fulfill your desires and bring you children.
Hang in there! :) Thinking of you!
Kitty
i forgot to answer the question you left in a comment for me...
vandenberg afb is north of ventura...between lompoc and santa maria. basically, in the middle of nowhere. but it has to be that way for safety reasons...they launch satellites and such here.
as far as our RE, mine has an office in ventura and santa barbara...and three other locations i think. i really wish we were still gonna be close to her when we're ready to try again. but, that's life in the military for ya.
Wow, that was such a great post. It really touched me too! Off to look at her website! Thank you!!!
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