Daily Devotion

I subscribe to daily devotions from Sarah's Laughter and today of all days, the day our profile is ready for print, the day after my nerves and anxiousness of our profile put a real damper on our anniversary, the day that my heart and mind are so exhausted, I opened my email to read this:

Be Still

Be still and know that I am God.

Psalm 46:10

What’s been the biggest decision you’ve had to face in trying to have a baby? Has it been the decision to seek medical treatment or not? Telling people or keeping your struggle private? Have you had to consider whether you need to take a break this month from your attempts to conceive or just try one more time? Some decisions must be made quickly, other take time and contemplation. It can seem like your life is a constant barrage of questions demanding answers. You’ve searched for answers, yet you come up empty handed. Perhaps God is saying to you today “be still”.

The psalm that houses this verse is actually a song written for a choir director. The song begins by proclaiming that God is our refuge, our strength and our help when trouble comes. The lyrics tell of earthquakes, mountains slipping into the sea, and of wars among the nations. The comfort comes in knowing that God is God and He chooses to be with us. In the midst of turmoil and confusion, we can lay down our worries and know that God is the one true and living God.

Infertility can cause such chaos in your heart. It seems you think of conception and nothing else. Sometimes you just get so tired of having to make all the right choices! Should I see this doctor or find another one? How much weight should I gain/lose? Instead of childbearing being a beautiful and intimate event in the natural course of a marital relationship, it becomes a series of decisions and schedules that must be kept, and it can feel tumultuous! God says “be still”.

Be still and know that God is God. Be still and rest in the knowledge that He loves you and has a magnificent plan. Let your heart be still and know that God knows your desire for a baby. Be still and know that He can heal your body of the diseases that hinder reproduction. Be still and know that the God of the universe chooses to be involved in your life, even through the struggle with infertility. You don’t have to panic even when life doesn’t pan out the way you dreamed it would because God is still God and He is with us as our stronghold.

Be still and know that I am God.