I have been told this numerous times in the past 3 days. After having many random run ins with some old friends and sharing our story to our daughter I have heard more times than I can count “ You guys are so lucky!”
And I hate to admit this out loud but my infertile self was pissed. Lucky? Me? You must be confused.
I’m infertile. I can’t get pregnant, adoption is expensive, we’re not rich and I want a big family.
Why in the world would you call me lucky?
Thankfully my infertile mind was quickly stomped on as I starred at Faith flashing me the biggest grin in her high chair. My angry self instantly went away as I saw how lucky I am truly am.
I am lucky to have been chosen by Star and have the pleasure of calling myself Faith’s mom.
I am lucky than we had about the easiest adoption ever.
I am lucky we had the money to adopt.
I am lucky that my husband allows me to be a stay at home mom and raise Faith.
I am lucky that we were blessed with a healthy daughter.
And I am down right lucky to be living this life. The life of my dreams. The life being a stay at home mother and wife.
To be loved by my husband, my daughter, my mother, father and more importantly by my Creator.
I am so lucky and I hope the next time someone tells me that, I instantly realize just how lucky I truly am.
10 comments:
She is too cute! You ARE lucky and I understand what you mean. I want a big family too but just as we trusted God to bring us Nate, we trust him to fill our home with many more little faces!
By the way, was your husband able to find a new job?
Great perspective! Love the new pics, she is so beautiful!
I understand {somewhat} what you're saying. My sister has been waiting for a birth Mom to choose her & her husband for years. Adoptions have fallen through, birth Mom changed their minds, plagued with financial issued...wondering if God is trying to tell them something. But they finally adopted a 7 yr old about 3 years ago. They couldn't be happier. It was all meant to be.
Just like you and Faith.
Infertility bites. It's not a great feeling or badge of honor to have...but you are one lucky family & are blessed. Blessed in ways we sometimes don't realize at first...but we are.
{hugs!}
I have a very good friend that often tells me "Mel, LUCK has nothing to do with anything. You are BLESSED from the good Lord above." Somedays it is hard to understand why God places a particular path underneath our feet, especially when it challenges our very nature and desires. But He always know what he is doing. Always. And, my dear, you are supremely blessed. That girl is just a doll!
I beg to differ. You are not lucky. You are blessed.
But I know you know that. Christ paid an incredible price for all of us to be adopted by God-- to relate the cost of adoption on this earth-- it's a small price to pay.
Blessings on your incredible family.
She's SO beautiful!! I love your outlook. It reminds me that someday when we have a baby (whether adopted or biological) it will all be worth it when I look in to that sweet little face!!
Its completely human for you to feel like you did. Don't feel bad for that. You are most definitely lucky that Faith was placed in your arms as your daughter, you her mother. That is a gift that is beautiful. But that doesn't take away the pain of infertility. And you deserve to be mourning over the fact that you are infertile.
Don't feel bad at all, you are an amazing mom, who is always so grateful for little Faith but you are human.
I agree with Mel. There is no such thing as luck...just the Good Lord's Blessings! We are truly blessed to be these little one's mommies.
Great post!
Gosh, she is just so adorable!!
Lucky and blessed all rolled up into the most adorable little girl. I am praying that our adoption process is quick and painless, too!!
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