Tomorrow baby girl is a big day! For tomorrow on December 27th 2010 you and I and Daddy are going to meet the very special woman who gave birth to you! Right now, my love, you have no idea what this all means but one day you will know what a special special day this was.
Right now I have to tell you I am sooooo nervous! With 24 hours left to go until we meet her face to face my mind can't stop racing and my heart can't stop pumping a million beats a minute! I wish I could tell you why I am so nervous but quite frankly I'm not sure.
I guess I wonder if she will be happy with us. Will she see the love we feel for you? Will she see that you are the sun that lights our day and just how complete you make us? Will she notice the way your Daddy looks at you with adoring eyes or the way my heart beams with pride when you say " Mama"? Will she be content that she chose us to be your Mom and Dad?
The day she gave birth to you we got the best phone call, the one that told us we had been chosen to be your mommy and daddy. There was so many unknowns that night but we know that your birth mother made the incredible hard choice to not see you. I can only imagine how hard that day was for her and how badly her heart wanted to keep you with her forever but she knew she could not so she did the most unselfish thing anyone could ever do and that was choosing what was best for YOU over what her heart wanted.
I can only imagine tonight how she is feeling as she will see you for the first time! What will she think? What will she feel? What will she say?
I've played this day in my head over and over again and I can never fully grasp it. How tomorrow for a few hours you will be near 2 women in this world who love you only as a mother can, one from a distance and one right beside you. Its emotions and feelings so large I can't fully grasp them right now and don't know if I ever will.
We hope that one day you will appreciate the way we love and respect your birth mother. We hope that you will be proud of us for putting our fears aside and having visits and phone calls and pictures exchanges with her. We hope you will appreciate the small things we do for her and her family around the holidays and throughout the year. We hope that you always realize that we acknowledge the desire you may one day have to know her more and we respect that. We love you more than words can ever say and every thing we do and every choice we make, we hope makes you proud one day.
So my dearest Faith its time to rest up for tomorrow is a big day in which your past, present and future will all come together for a few short hours to marvel in the miracle that you are to each of us.
11 comments:
Wow, good luck! I know exactly how you feel. We have already had 2 visits with Jackson's birthmom and there are so many feelings that go with it, no matter how much we love her and how prepared we think we are. I hope you are able to enjoy the few hours you have and that Faith does well:).
i am in tears ~ those are beautiful beautiful words....my heart wishes you a truly magical day beyond what you could ever imagine. can't wait to hear all about it! :)
Sending my prayers to everyone that your visit is peaceful. Enjoy every moment! Happy, sad, nervousness, smiles, tears, hugs, photos! May your day be blessed with beautiful moments and a lifetime of memories!
I am so nervous for you! I'll be keeping you in my thoughts & prayers.
Big Hugs!
what an incredible day! I'm so proud of you, and I'm not even related to you. I'm sure Faith will be more than proud to call you her parents. Good luck!
Truly a beautiful post. I know everything is going to go well today. Looking forward to hearing all about it.
You are already on your way down there but I am praying for you!! Can't wait to read about it!!
Thinking of you today! Can't wait to hear how it went! xoxo
What a sweet, heartfelt letter! I hope today was everything you imagined it to be and more. So excited for you!
You are an amazing woman!! You and Greg are incredible parents! Your beautiful Faith will appreciate you both for this wonderful tribute to her!
I know I'm reading this two days late...but this is such a beautiful post!
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