June 3rd 2010 was a huge life changing day in our household.
June 3rd 2010 was the day Hubby received an email offering him the job position here in Texas. A short 11 days later he was sitting at his new desk, at his new job, in a new state.
I remember the excitement we felt when he got that email. Laying in bed literally squealing with excitement at what lay ahead of us. Literally a whole new world, with new adventures, and new memories to be made.
It was exactly what we had prayed and hoped for for the previous couple months. A great new job in a great new town. It was exactly what we thought we wanted.
We immediatley made plans to drive out to Texas and had a mere 48 hours to find a place to live before I had to fly back to California. Faith and I couldn't yet move to Texas because our adoption was not yet finalized. So Hubby and I drove half way cross country and spent the next day desperatley searching for a place to live. There was so many options...to many options in fact and as we sat in one office getting ready to sign a lease I started crying. It just didn't feel right...I don't know if it was the apartment, the city, the stress or what but last second we decided to go back to the 3 bedroom apartment and sign our lease there and hours later I was on a plane heading back to California.
It was a whirlwind to say the least.
July 2nd 2010 we were finally able to finalize Faith's adoption. Hubby flew out to California of course to be there we had a wonderful party to celebrate and 2 weeks later on July 14th, Faith and I got a plane and officially moved to Texas.
I'll never forget the feelings I had saying good bye to my family at the airport. Words can't even explain all the emotions rushing through. Of sadness, excitement , fear and ultimatley joy to be reunited with my husband and begin our new lives together.
I wish I could tell you it was everything I dreamed it to be and more. I wish I could tell you how much I love it here and how it was the best move we've ever made. I wish I could tell you all these and more but I just can't.
This past year has been one of the most challenging years of my life.
The every day challenges that we have faced out here have been more than I could have ever anticipated. The little things back home that I completely took for granted. The family I didn't apprecaite enough, the friends I thought I could live without, the 5 minute breaks from motherhood given to me when I vist Grandma's house, the small nights out to So.uplanta.tion with my husband, it truly is the little things that I miss the most.
Yet as incredibly hard as this year has been it has been a year of incredible growth for me as a woman, a wife and especially as a mother. I have learned that even when I think I can't, when I think I have absolutely nothing left inside of me, I still can and I do.
I have learned that my husband is far more than I ever deserved in this life time. He has lifted me up in my hardest and darkest of days out here. He has not only allowed but encouraged nights out so I could regain some sanity. He has stood beside me and wiped every tear from my eyes. The rational and not the not so rational ones. He has understood me in a way that only he could. He has seeked out the true emotions in my heart even when there not so pretty.
I have learned that I am an incredibly good and strong mother. No matter how hard of a day I have Faith would never know it. I wake up every morning with a smile of my face and kisses for my sweet girl. We get out every single day. We seek out whatever activities are going on in the city and even though we often do it alone, we do it. Rather it be story time at the library, playing in the water at the splash pad, or visiting the children's museum, everyday is a fun day for Faith and every day I give her everything I have to make sure that she is happy and well.
This past year I have also grown in my walk with the Lord. I have to be honest, I have turned away from Him so many days while we have been here. Wondering why He would do this to me...why He kept saying no to my prayer to return home....why He had abandoned me in my time of need...it took me a very long time and is still sometimes a daily struggle for me to realize He isn't doing this to me. He hasn't left me at all and I know in my heart that He is carrying me every day out here.
We had hoped that this June 3rd would bring us news of a whole new adventure for us. Thus far it hasn't. But if I have learned anything since Faith was born is that God is a great big God who is always working even when we can't see what He is doing. He sees the bigger picture, He knows the bigger plan and everytime I look at my sweet little Faith I can be reminded of that.
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.
June 3rd 2010 was the day Hubby received an email offering him the job position here in Texas. A short 11 days later he was sitting at his new desk, at his new job, in a new state.
I remember the excitement we felt when he got that email. Laying in bed literally squealing with excitement at what lay ahead of us. Literally a whole new world, with new adventures, and new memories to be made.
It was exactly what we had prayed and hoped for for the previous couple months. A great new job in a great new town. It was exactly what we thought we wanted.
We immediatley made plans to drive out to Texas and had a mere 48 hours to find a place to live before I had to fly back to California. Faith and I couldn't yet move to Texas because our adoption was not yet finalized. So Hubby and I drove half way cross country and spent the next day desperatley searching for a place to live. There was so many options...to many options in fact and as we sat in one office getting ready to sign a lease I started crying. It just didn't feel right...I don't know if it was the apartment, the city, the stress or what but last second we decided to go back to the 3 bedroom apartment and sign our lease there and hours later I was on a plane heading back to California.
It was a whirlwind to say the least.
July 2nd 2010 we were finally able to finalize Faith's adoption. Hubby flew out to California of course to be there we had a wonderful party to celebrate and 2 weeks later on July 14th, Faith and I got a plane and officially moved to Texas.
I'll never forget the feelings I had saying good bye to my family at the airport. Words can't even explain all the emotions rushing through. Of sadness, excitement , fear and ultimatley joy to be reunited with my husband and begin our new lives together.
I wish I could tell you it was everything I dreamed it to be and more. I wish I could tell you how much I love it here and how it was the best move we've ever made. I wish I could tell you all these and more but I just can't.
This past year has been one of the most challenging years of my life.
The every day challenges that we have faced out here have been more than I could have ever anticipated. The little things back home that I completely took for granted. The family I didn't apprecaite enough, the friends I thought I could live without, the 5 minute breaks from motherhood given to me when I vist Grandma's house, the small nights out to So.uplanta.tion with my husband, it truly is the little things that I miss the most.
Yet as incredibly hard as this year has been it has been a year of incredible growth for me as a woman, a wife and especially as a mother. I have learned that even when I think I can't, when I think I have absolutely nothing left inside of me, I still can and I do.
I have learned that my husband is far more than I ever deserved in this life time. He has lifted me up in my hardest and darkest of days out here. He has not only allowed but encouraged nights out so I could regain some sanity. He has stood beside me and wiped every tear from my eyes. The rational and not the not so rational ones. He has understood me in a way that only he could. He has seeked out the true emotions in my heart even when there not so pretty.
I have learned that I am an incredibly good and strong mother. No matter how hard of a day I have Faith would never know it. I wake up every morning with a smile of my face and kisses for my sweet girl. We get out every single day. We seek out whatever activities are going on in the city and even though we often do it alone, we do it. Rather it be story time at the library, playing in the water at the splash pad, or visiting the children's museum, everyday is a fun day for Faith and every day I give her everything I have to make sure that she is happy and well.
This past year I have also grown in my walk with the Lord. I have to be honest, I have turned away from Him so many days while we have been here. Wondering why He would do this to me...why He kept saying no to my prayer to return home....why He had abandoned me in my time of need...it took me a very long time and is still sometimes a daily struggle for me to realize He isn't doing this to me. He hasn't left me at all and I know in my heart that He is carrying me every day out here.
We had hoped that this June 3rd would bring us news of a whole new adventure for us. Thus far it hasn't. But if I have learned anything since Faith was born is that God is a great big God who is always working even when we can't see what He is doing. He sees the bigger picture, He knows the bigger plan and everytime I look at my sweet little Faith I can be reminded of that.
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.
1 comment:
You should be so incredibly proud of yourself. Not everyone can leave everything they know, and with a young child no less, and make the best of it like you have. Change is hard, but as you have learned, it makes us stronger. Faith's name is so fitting - having faith means knowing the best is being planned for you, without you being able to see it and prove it. And Faith is your proof, as Jackson is mine:). Hang in there, girl.
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