Some random thoughts I am feeling today on motherhood to two sweet little babes today
- I absoluetly adore it! I love having two little babies who need me and still want me to hold them and feed them and love them ( in public no less! Although I did give Winni the line today when telling her not to climb on the benches " Well I am not that little girls mother so I can't stop her but I am your mama and I am telling you no")
- Man is it hard! I was so blessed to fulfill my dream of saying for a short time " I had two under two" believe it or not thats what I always wanted! And I love it still but man is it difficult sometimes!
- People always said when I expressed fear of having two kids so young " Love doesn't divide , it multiplies" while that may be true no matter how you try to put it your time is divided, you can not create more hours in the day and most of the day I feel as if I am failing one of them while I give the other attention.
- That said it is getting better the older Tyson gets the more he is able to interact and him and Winni actually play together a little more now than before
Proof:
- I have got to start cutting myself some slack on thie whole " mom" thing. I don't know any other person who puts as much guilt on themselves as I do. I feel like if we don't do something amazing and fun and active and crafty and educational everyday I am failing. Example yesterday we went to the children's museum had an amazing fun day. Today as we were waiting for Tyson to wake up from his mornign nap I felt guilty that I didn't have great plans for the day. When in fact we had a great play date at the mall play area had lunch visited the pet shop ( umm can you say amazing to a 2 and a half year old) and played like crazy yet I feel like I didn't do " enough" Thisobsession with being the perfect mom is an everyday occurance for me and its highly unhealthy.
- Speaking of naps, thank you Lord that Winni still takes them!
- Having a new baby who needs 3 naps a day is rough. Well its awsome but its rough in the morning. Me and Win used to be out and about by 10-10:30 now we are usually barely leaving the house by noon when Ty wakes up from his nap. I have been looking for preschools because I know I can only play and entertain Winni so much and I know she would LOVE school!
- Most of the people I know with two kids never really had two at home at the same time. They already had an older one in some sort of school and lemme tell ya it is every different having two home all day every day. ( Not easier but sometimes I think how the heck do they do that! "That" being bake cupcakes that look so beautiful " Then I realize they only have one child for a few hours a day, still hard yes but different)
- I love how Winni calls gummy bears " Bear chews" seriously its awesome...oh yeah she also calls poop " Butt monkies" you can thank her daddy for that one.
- I hear my kids crying at night all night deal is, there not crying they are fast asleep and I obsessively check on them and think I hear them. Its a horrible feeling and leaves me not resting well at all.
- My line with my children and husband when I say I love you I always add " With all my heart" I think thats gonna be our new family motto.
- I adore the crap outta my husband. I know this is my post on motherhood but he still manages to make my heart flutter every time he kisses me!
- Why the heck am I blogging when both kids are asleep??? I need a nap! Good night!
4 comments:
Well, according to your high standards you've set for yourself, I am failing at a remarkable rate!! One thing all mamas need to learn it to give yourself some grace. It's probably the greatest gift you can give to yourself!
I feel you. I had 2 under 1. It is INSANELY hard. And, yes, moms who have 1 or who have kids with a bigger gap do have a lot more time for sure! I also wish I could do more with my babies, but with the limits of nap times and this darn town that has NOTHING to do, going to Target becomes our big excursion for the day! I am constantly wondering what more I could do for them, but I am trying to let go of the guilt. My babies have SO much, but most importantly, they have a mom and dad who love them more than ANYthing. That is what matters - the rest is just icing:). Remember that!
You are doing amazing! I am a lurker but think you are such a good mama. It took me a bit to realize this but kids sometimes need a down day. A day to sit in pajamas and just be together at home. I had two at home when my second was a baby and it is hard! Especially in the winter. When the weather was nice we went on a lot of walks to the park. Now I am a mama of 3 with two in school (one in half day preschool) and I still feel badly because between dropping off and picking up and baby naps I don't have time to really take her anywhere like the other 2 got to when they were younger! You never win! LOL. Just gotta do our best. They are loved and taken care of and that's is what matters most; not if they get daily outings.
LOL! Butt monkies!!!!
My brother is 368 days older then I am. And my sister is 4 years old then me. I don't know how my mom did it.
I have the same guilt of wanting to do more and not having the time, energy and sometimes money to do it. I forget that a trip to the mall thrills Isabel.
Love the video of Winni making him laugh. Too cute!
Our family motto is 'always and forever' (thus the title of my blog). It's engraved in Dave's wedding band. We've said it to each other since we were engaged and I say it now to Isabel all the time when she asks if I'm going to be her momma forever.
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